among my soul and I

today is my new day, why? because i'll have a new new new new day. i don't have boyfriend like before. i don't have a guy who loves me as usual for 1 years before. i had hurt of course but i'll change my heart and soul by myself. i'm looking for someone hahahha just kidding, i believe someday i'll find someone, a guy, a man who loves me endlessly like my dad's song that called LOVE IS WAITING. now, i'll try my best for myself. i try to be strong. i do. in my loneliness like this, i had a conversation with myself. actually my soul and I.

this is the conversation this morning.

me : hey, how are you doing?
my soul : well hmmm like usual
me : hey, you try to lied me. i know you hey i know!
my soul : no, you don't know me oke?
me : i do! i do! what's the matter? hey tell me.
my soul : i'm fine, well. trust me
me : oh please don't be a liar. you are us. we are you.
my soul : i don't know why, but i'm just feeling not well. not in the mood, bad mood
me : you know what you got, you know why'd you get hurt, you know.
my soul : i know, but i'm scared of my mind and also my heart
me : why?
my soul : because i can't let it go, i can't. i try to worn it, but i can't.
me : you can you can you can, listen to me please.............
my soul : NO NO NO! i don't want to hear you ok?
me : hey. please.
my soul : ok.
me : you can solve them, you can. please you go to your bedroom, then you'll get the mirror, you'll see what happened to you.
my soul : then?
me : you know who you are. you are Audita Ananda Nundini who grows with the perfect family. your mom and dad love you much, and really much. they don't wanna see their daughter fells sad or something. you can up your lips, then you can smile.
my soul : then?
me : look at the mirror again ok? you'll see your eyes. are your eyes watering? and the answer is yes! do you wanna see your eyes like that? of course not right? then you'll see your face. you are very beautiful, ya ya trust me. i want you to know that you are beautiful then please delete your tears, go smile, and go ahead. don't think you can't get the other guy ya.
my soul : oh yeah, thank you. i'll be stronger than this, i promise.
me : ya ya ya. that's good idea. don't you go to anywhere with your friends tomorrow?
my soul : ya ya, and i miss them so much. i do!
me : so, before you meet them all, i wanna see your smile like yesterday yesterday and yesterday. don't be that sad oke.
my soul : thank you. i love you my soul and i................................................